Monday, December 5, 2011

They say she is loved by the greatest of all
Who have walked in the world
He lives far away, still she spends all her days
Content with only His words 

She often walks alone, but never is she lonely
You can offer her anything
Her affections are all for Him only 

She looks to the sky
As if He is coming down through the clouds up above
Though no one has seen Him you cannot deny
She is drenched with His love 

She often walks alone, but never is she lonely
You can offer her anything
Her affections are all for Him only 

All the day long she sings sweetly
She says He speaks to her mind
She's only rich with affliction
Yet a bitter word you won't find 

song by sherri youngward 

This song spoke to me on a day like today! I woke up felling tired and sore from a very needy and hungry baby that kept me up every 2 1-2 hours last night. There she was asleep beside me. Afraid to move, I lay there just waiting for her to wake. My husband is ironing his shirt preparing to leave me, not only with the newborn, but the toddler watching loony toons in the other room for the second time around already this morning! ...Next thing I know I am feeding Priscilla for the 5th time and it's only noon...       

That is one way of looking at this morning. 

On a day like today, I missed the blessings God had for me. I missed out on the ways my family blessed me. I missed the opportunity to bless them.. Little appreciation was given to my husband for getting luciana out of bed quietly to let me sleep in. He even did a load of dishes for me! He then went to his first day at his second job to provide for us. My toddler, although very needy as soon as I begin to nurse my newborn, proceeded to entertain herself despite a very boring mother.  

Thank you Lord for how much you bless me-- even when You know I may not realize or see the blessings, you still pour them out onto me! 

I read this quote today in my Jane Austen address book. Jane Austen wrote this in her novel Pride and Prejudice, "Those who don't complain are never pitied".   

I also read 1Peter 1 and came across this verse, "Though now you do not see Him, yet believing you rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory,".. 

So the sum of what He has taught me today through my address book, 1 Peter chapter 1, and listening to sherri youngwards cd in my kitchen is simple. God is enough. He is so satisfying that no matter what comes my way, there is blessing in it. He is with me when I'm feeding my baby and attempting to entertain my toddler. Even if I feel unproductive and exhausted, it is not in vain if I am doing it for Him. When I realize this, my day is suddenly flipped around and I can "rejoice with joy inexpressible".

Friday, March 4, 2011

Baby numero dos!!

Psalm 139:
 1 You have searched me, LORD,
   and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
   you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
   you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
   you, LORD, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
   and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
   too lofty for me to attain.
 7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
   Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
   if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
   if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
   your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
   and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
   the night will shine like the day,
   for darkness is as light to you.
 13 For you created my inmost being;
   you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
   your works are wonderful,
   I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
   when I was made in the secret place,
   when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
   all the days ordained for me were written in your book
   before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
   How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
   they would outnumber the grains of sand—
   when I awake, I am still with you.
 19 If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
   Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
   your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, LORD,
   and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
   I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
   test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
   and lead me in the way everlasting.   

                          Little did Roy know his break would consist of find out he has another  baby on the way!!

       Luciana is now in bed for the night and I am sitting here just fathoming what God has for our family! Words can't describe the excitement He's placed in my heart!!! As most everyone knows by now (thank you facebook) Roy and I will be having another baby. God has allowed us once again to have this privilege of parenting a little human that He is knitting together as we speak!! God know's everything about this little person even now, even before birth. Shoot, He knew this sweet human being would be on it's way far before the pregnancy test! Although the typical New Yorker these days would think this to be insanity; 1.a young couple first of all married before finishing school, 2, second of all parenting 1 baby before starting our career, 3. and thirdly being pregnant with baby number two when we are at last finishing school! 
            What? and Why? Well, we believe life to be a gift that is soo sweet and soo pure. God Himself came and died for His creation. This tells Roy and I that life must definitely than have worth. God has made it clear to us that He wants us to parent. Having Luciana has been such a gift and has taught us so much about God as a father. The love we have been given from Jesus is the number one thing that we wish to give to our kids. Looking around in society today, we see people with  brand new houses and cars, high paying jobs, even retirement plans in place and THEN they are ready for kids. Why is this? Are materials going to sustain their children? Will new clothes and toys impact these kids for eternity? Will a mommy and daddy that are settled into a 6am-6pm job everyday make a joyful child? Will a child that grows up with a new toy whenever they want it REALLY grow up to have everything they ever needed?
           What will they value? A stressful job that gives them lots of money so that they can pay for a fat mortgage? The newest outfit to fit in with the most popular group at school to look down on the most unpopular kids in school. 
          Anyway, enough rambling. My point is that although the world says we aren't "ready", God says we are. Jesus fills our hearts and we know that nothing else can bring contentment like Him. God has given us healthy body's and souls to raise kids.What a blessing! If we could teach her how much God loves her and how much of a purpose He can give her life, we have done our jobs. If Roy and I can love each other how God wants Luciana's husband to love her, we have done our job. If we can show her how much more important it is to look to Jesus for provision than it is to look to her huge bank account we believe Jesus would be proud.

            Baby D is already "fearfully wonderful" according to Psalm 139. The baby is literally in God's presence being formed in secret. The baby's days are already written and fashioned together before the baby is even born! This baby has so much purpose and he_she will know it. The baby will know that God's thoughts toward them are so precious and great. This is our goal above all else.        We do ask for prayer as we will be moving and we are seeking out the next job God already has in line for Roy. We pray that we could have discernment to see clearly where God wants us. Pray for a healthy pregnancy also. Thanks for taking part in this excitement with us and taking time to read this note.
    Luciana thought she would point to the test in case you were too busy looking at her! haha!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Simple and Amazing things I am thankful for this past month

---Philipians 4 says
"I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength." 
---God has been speaking to Roy and I about being thankful for where we are in life. Seems that Satan wants us to get caught up in the future and miss all that God has for us in the present. 
So it's time to count my blessings. I'm thankful, not only for a very full bellied baby as seen above, but for the way she sits still at times. Just this month Luciana has become captivated by books. No matter what mood she may be in, if I crack open a book, this baby will be still. It's amazing. I love that she will cuddle for a book!
These are a homemade pair of socks! Yup that's right, my grandmother made them for me for Christmas (on top of a hat for Roy, and the baby and me). Got them just today in the mail. The note simply says "Enjoy, love Grammie"... I am spoiled!
Just a hint of all that my husband surprised me with on Valentine's day. He wanted me to relax this year. I have a hard time doing this if there are distractions around (a.k.a. housework). Roy made the house spotless and even managed to put out some gourmet treats for me. Ah huh, he really knows me well. This was the best gift ever!
I'm so grateful for a baby girl period. But along with having a baby girl comes being able to make them EXTRA girly. I am so thankful for this. I enjoy dressing her up at least 3 times a day. She is the best...she lets me put bows in her hair like no other kid...she keeps her shoes on, keeps her bow in, EVEN manages to cross her legs while wearing skirts! She's somethin' else:)
Lastly, I'm thankful for the love that Roy has for our daughter. I am so looking forward to seeing their relationship grow as time goes on. For now, at ten months old, she enjoys when he sings to her. He enjoys when she sits still while he holds her. ha.